a few moments left

The end of 2006 soon approaches. It was a year that had been looming in my head for over two years now, though I had no idea why. Ever since 2004 I had kept thinking it was 2006; I would write it on checks, letters, whatever required a date. I misinterpreted the meaning, thinking that maybe musically I would find some moderate success, and in a way I have--meeting my band and all--but not in the ways I had originally thought.
I had bursts of change in my life, people and things that had been in my life for years, now aren't. I had been in desperate need of some sort of variance, and put all my energy and thoughts into what I thought would cure the static, but it turns out that I was looking at it all wrong. The realization came with incredible heartache and loneliness, people I thought I was close with weren't there, and those that I never would have expected anything from came out of the woodwork. With the changes came new places, experiences, music, and people that filled the holes and helped create new growth and appendages. I have three arms now, piano playing is going to new heights!

I miss all that I have lost, but I am changed and the world is carving me (ahem) in ways I never expected.

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My highlights from this year:

*Going to San Francisco and seeing dear friends
*Meeting my band, Self-Employed Assassins
*My five days in NYC
*Having both my parents around me for three days to help me move. Haven't had them both together, just them and me, since I was two.
Being in the F.E.W.
*My trip to the Dominican Republic, which I just got back from. I am actually tan, it's amazing....so was the trip.
*Having the Cocteau Twins, and This Mortal Coil brought into my life.
*Introduced to this stuff called dukkah, which is this pistachio/coriander/cumin/smoked paprika dry rub-ish kind of thing that you dip bread into. I must have some on hand at all times.
*Finally seeing TV on the Radio live.
*My drunken summer where I was showered with love and devotion despite being in the midst of turmoil and sadness.
*My heart breaking and bursting with love all at the same time.
*Finally watching the Three Colors trilogy
*Reading The Red Tent
*Seeing Wings of Desire
*My trip to Colorado, through blizzard and obstacles, restoring a faith in humanity that I was never really willing to give up on.

And so it ends, and a new year begins.



much love,

sarah


p.s. I just bought My Brightest Diamond's CD 'Bring me the workhorse', and I am instantly in love. Such fire and passion in her sultry voice. Also am reading the book 'In the Time of the Butterflies' by Julia Alvarez, it's historical fiction based on the revolution of the 60's in the Dominican Republic. Can't put it down, just like I didn't want to leave the country. Such a lush and vibrant country.


Happy New Year everyone.

xoxoxoxox