Friday, September 16, 2005
So, Rigel is still leaving. I want to recover from this ASAP but I'm lost to where I need to go. My first reaction is to say....fuck it. I'll be solo forever. But the fact is that I want a band. I like doing solo performances, a lot. But there is nothing better then playing with someone that you really connect with. That feeling of power on stage is the best thing in the world, better then sex or chocolate or drugs (though I'm not really a drug fan) or alcohol or avocados. And maybe I just want a person or two to play with for my own stuff....and then I want to be in a band band on the side. A band where I sing and don't sit behind my keyboard. I could jump around, walk into the audience, I could clap my hands, I could walk over and sing into someone else's microphone..simple luxuries that are not allowed when you are behind a beast with 88 keys to play. There's only so much a woman can do.
When I was little we had this wall of closets that had mirrored fronts, and I would spend hours entertaining the imaginary masses that looked back at me. I rocked. They all told me so. My mom was encouraging but a little perturbed at my narcissism, but she was partly to blame because she was the one that took me to drama class, and paid for my piano lessons. My parents are artists but they weren't the self absorbed kind. Maybe my dad a little, but not really.
To be solo you have to kickass. At everything. I can kick ass on my vocals and my songwriting (though I'm sure there are many that would disagree), but my piano skills are very hard to kickass at. It's not for lack of trying. I can play my way through, but not the way I want to. Not like Tori, or Regina, or Ms. Palmer, or Rufus, or my favorite musician on the planet right now..Peter Moore. Peter Moore sings for a band called Count Zero, he used to front a band called Think Tree, and lately he has been doing these solo shows that are tentatively called 'Love Cycle'. Peter Moore is my idol. This solo show he does consists of him doing these skits in between songs, he does all the voices of four different characters and each skit hints at what the next song will be. It's him. Two mics. A Keyboard. And a kick drum. His piano playing is astounding, he can go from these sort of groove based songs that are reminiscent of Prince, and then do these crazy- ass 20th century classical sounding pieces with all this fast finger work and chromatic runs and crazy chords...ah man it makes me so jealous. And he's a lovely and handsome man to top it all off. Jealous. so very jealous.
I wrote some new songs that I really like. I am hopefully recording some stuff with Rigel before she leaves. I need to have this for posterity, and to also see who or what and if anyone else could ever do what she does. I am hopeful, I know everything happens for a reason, even when it hurts and makes you feel lost. I just hope it happens soon, I'm sick of floating around in the middle of the ocean. so to speak.
that's a metaphor.
When I was little we had this wall of closets that had mirrored fronts, and I would spend hours entertaining the imaginary masses that looked back at me. I rocked. They all told me so. My mom was encouraging but a little perturbed at my narcissism, but she was partly to blame because she was the one that took me to drama class, and paid for my piano lessons. My parents are artists but they weren't the self absorbed kind. Maybe my dad a little, but not really.
To be solo you have to kickass. At everything. I can kick ass on my vocals and my songwriting (though I'm sure there are many that would disagree), but my piano skills are very hard to kickass at. It's not for lack of trying. I can play my way through, but not the way I want to. Not like Tori, or Regina, or Ms. Palmer, or Rufus, or my favorite musician on the planet right now..Peter Moore. Peter Moore sings for a band called Count Zero, he used to front a band called Think Tree, and lately he has been doing these solo shows that are tentatively called 'Love Cycle'. Peter Moore is my idol. This solo show he does consists of him doing these skits in between songs, he does all the voices of four different characters and each skit hints at what the next song will be. It's him. Two mics. A Keyboard. And a kick drum. His piano playing is astounding, he can go from these sort of groove based songs that are reminiscent of Prince, and then do these crazy- ass 20th century classical sounding pieces with all this fast finger work and chromatic runs and crazy chords...ah man it makes me so jealous. And he's a lovely and handsome man to top it all off. Jealous. so very jealous.
I wrote some new songs that I really like. I am hopefully recording some stuff with Rigel before she leaves. I need to have this for posterity, and to also see who or what and if anyone else could ever do what she does. I am hopeful, I know everything happens for a reason, even when it hurts and makes you feel lost. I just hope it happens soon, I'm sick of floating around in the middle of the ocean. so to speak.
that's a metaphor.
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