forward motion

I'm sick of sinking. Of feeling broken. Of being lost. I've decided to completely pre-occupy my thoughts by making myself as busy as possible. Which I should have been doing all along, but for some reason I sat around waiting for disaster. This summer there was bad energy in the air, I felt it everywhere I went. The sun would shine, the birds would sing, the trees would bend in the wind, beads of sweat would glisten after the bubble tea would quench my thirst....yet still I couldn't shake the feeling of imminent doom. And lo and behold, imminent doom struck, but I didn't feel like that was it. There was more in store.

But the winds are changing, it's getting colder, leaves are turning, and though I had been dreading autumn for fear of it's wintry successor..I'm kind of happy about it now. It's been raining for four days or so, and I have been loving it. I just pretend like I'm living in London and everything seems better. The empty bottles of red wine in my kitchen have also helped out some.

Rigel and I recorded some live demos over the weekend. I don't know how I feel about them yet as I haven't heard them. I've been getting over being sick so I don't think my voice was where it should have been. It's also kind of weird recording live with someone because you try and be in the same place emotionally and physically at all the right moments...and sometimes it doesn't happen. I hope it works out so that I have something to show for the work we have done together. We recorded some heavy stuff, all the songs I love to play with her are emotionally fucking draining. My arms were exhausted playing the beast of an instrument...the 6 foot matted black beauty. She's got tough aciton, and dull strings. But I wish I could have her or something like her at my gigs. I love the feeling of pounding, playing, and controlling something that massive. It's such a trial. Such a struggle.

I have a show coming up in November that will hopefully help me out of these doldrums. I'm going to be playing with Nate, the drummer from HUMANWINE (who I also saw at The Lizard on Friday and they are still really good) http://www.humanwine.org, and hopefully my psychic pal and art crusader, Scott Dakota. It's at the Paradise Lounge and we are trying to do something special. More details to come.
Also, next week I am going on a road trip with Ad Frank and the Fast Easy Women. We are going to play some shows in Buffalo, Detroit, and Chicago...so if you live in any of those places check out http://www.adfrank.com for our tour dates and venues. I'm super excited about it, and I love them all so much...but I've already talked them up so much...but we rock. Check it out.

I would also like to say that I just read one of the best books ever. It has helped me get out of this gross slump, it's called 'the Life of Pi'. It's one of those things that come at the right time, fills you up with goodness, and leaves you alone with your thoughts to contemplate life and all that it brings....at least it did that for me. I love good books just as much as good albums. Especially when they bring psychic dreams and dreams of Nepalese princesses.

that's all for now...